It is what it feels like lately, like I am about to fly into the sun. Having just got back from my trip to Germany last night, I woke this morning in a panic. I am leaving England in two weeks. Two weeks and this is all over. This amazing part of my life where I have traveled and experienced more than I ever thought possible is almost over. And I have no idea what lies ahead. My life is one giant question mark.
And that is utterly terrifying. Hurtling through time towards an unknown destination. It feels like it is going to burn me alive, but I hope it doesn't. Hopefully I enter another period of exploration and excitement.
I think my greatest fear is that, in the future, I will look back on this past year and say "That was the best time of my life". I don't want that to happen. I don't want my life to have peaked when I was 22.
For my generation, our 20s have become the do or die years, and so many are wracked with anxiety constantly because they are struggling to make it in a world that is designed for them to fail. And that is the struggle that I am about to enter.
I know this sounds really sad and depressing, but I just came off a super amazing week in a country I love, and had to say goodbye to two friends who I have no idea if and when I will ever see them again. That kind of situation can make me a little introspective.
To end on a slighter lighter note, my trip to Germany was one of the best of my life. There are very few times in my life that I can recall where I enjoyed myself so much. Keep an eye out for my posts about the trip coming soon! Just need to sort through all my photos first...
But for now I can tell you about the photo included with this post. It was taken in the few seconds I had when my plane out of Stuttgart was taking off, right before the plane turned and headed west. It was stunning. And the best part was, since we were flying with the earth's rotation, this magnificent sunset lasted for almost an hour.
That is all for now, I just wanted to get my anxieties off my chest a little. Who knows! Hopefully something even better is waiting for me around the corner.....
It will!
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